I feel very shady about it, but I must admit to it, I am a lurker. I do it on just about everything that I’m a part of. I don’t lurk to be creepy, I genuinely love hearing what others have to say, and I definitely take something away from most of the conversations. I try to contribute to conversations, but my over-analysis of everything i’m saying gets the better of me. It’s not just like that in these online mediums either, it happens in my everyday life, as well. I have always been the quiet one. From a young age, I was always self-conscious about what I was doing or saying. I was the awkward kid too. I had big curly hair, braces, glasses, but that’s not to say that I was an outcast. I plenty of friends growing up (except for that really traumatic 8th grade year). I was/am quiet a lot of times because there are 15 thoughts running around in my head at any given moment, and for me to get out a coherent thought in conversation is quite difficult, at times. I’ve often felt that I have ADD, and finally speaking to my mother about it, she has believed, since I was a young child, that I have it (she just didn’t want me to be some overly medicated kid). That being said, I believe that we all have some form of ADD. My husband jokes around with me about having ADD, but in the years that he’s known me, I think that he’s come to realize that maybe i’m not just neurotic and that maybe there might be some truth to it. So, the point of this post is to say that it’s not just creepy, stalker-ish types that lurk. There are people truly interested in the conversations and just trying to find there own little way of making a contribution.
Filed under: Personal, Social Media | Tagged: ADD, lurking, quiet
